The Ditch


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I live in ditch
A place made of molten pitch
A place where darkness lerks all around,
No smiling faces for there is nothing to smile about, so I wear a frown.
People looking in from the outside may think,
She is happy, if only I could live in the world she lives in
But if they were to face my inside reality
They may see my life more as a calamity

Why is it that my world is so grim?
I am a Christian, there is suppose to be peace in that world of living
Yet my heart grips me with sadness from day to day
Sometimes I get so weak, I don’t know how to pray.

Who is there to share my story with?
For some Christian people will easily label me and move along with it
Oh God deliver me from this snare
I don’t like this ditch, it’s too dark in here.

Tell me what I need to do to be free from a hole
A hole that leaves me broken and cold
One more day feel likes it’s just too much more
Father please look down from heaven and open up a door.

This is your daughter and I need to hear from you
Forgive me of my sins, make me tried and true
Prepare me to be a sanctuary for you
Because my life is sinking even deeper without you

Please don’t be angry at my constant prayer
It’s just my determination to get out of here
Recreate me and let me be
A living testimony just for thee

I thank you in advance for taking me out of this ditch,
And placing me in a world of joy, more than happiness
Thank you Lord for saving me
For its only in you, I am free.

Now I declare to people everywhere
No more darkness, only light in here
No more snare ,No more hatred
No more angry flares, No more dark living.
No more sorrow, only joy
No more feeling incomplete
For I am yours.

– Candace Cudjoe

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Daily Digest: The Good Wife


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Have you ever wondered if everything in the Bible is true? I’m fairly certain there are some disgruntled husbands who read this verse and doubt the reliability of God’s Word. “A wife is a good thing? Are you sure?” they might ask.

While this proverb doesn’t say, “He who finds a good wife finds a good thing,” it is clearly implied—or presupposed—based on the greater context of the Book of Proverbs. In fact, the book contains many proverbs that speak to the value and benefits of finding a good wife (Proverbs 12:4; 14:1; 19:14; 31:10–12). Proverbs also warns of the dangers and potential consequences of marrying a bad or foolish wife. Solomon describes a “disgraceful wife” as decay in her husband’s bones (Proverbs 12:4) and “the dripping of a leaky roof in a rainstorm” (Proverbs 27:15).

But what is a good wife? Well, a good wife is a woman of wisdom, one who fears the Lord and seeks Him with all her heart. The implication in the original language is that the wife in question is one who earns the good adjective. She is virtuous, full of grace, and passionate about the things of God. It’s this dedication to the Lord and understanding of who she is in Him that allows her to function as a helpful companion and partner to her husband.

A good wife is a great blessing to her husband, a blessing from the Lord. She is a true partner who completes her husband as Eve did Adam—we’re talking “flesh of my flesh” and “bone of my bone” completion! Husband, honor your wife by loving her like Jesus does! Wife, keep running the race with perseverance. A wise husband and a good wife will thrive in their God-given roles and function together as the one-flesh team they were created to be.

DIG: Are you honoring your spouse by seeking God first in your own life and functioning within the role God designed for you?
DISCOVER: In what ways does your spouse fulfill the call God gave him or her as your partner and companion? How can you empower your spouse to continue to grow in that role? What can you do to continue to grow as one flesh?
DISPLAY: Take time today to pray for your spouse and honor him or her. Ask God to reveal areas that need growth and attention in your relationship.

– Interconnected

The Renewed Project: Keep Ticking


Recently I decided to take some time and read my older blog pieces. I was trying to pay attention to my progress over the almost three years of writing and what I’ve noticed is, there were both progression and disintegration. What was the cause for this? If you are doing something over and over and over, for many years, won’t you become better and better at it? Sure you would. So why was I seeing this “terrible” pattern. Being the person behind the blog and not assuming based on some humanistic system of thinking, I’ll openly say the source of that problem was inconsistency. Now there are the times when God would have pulled me back to deposit some things and that’s fine but I know, there were many times that my desire lackluster and I just didn’t do it. I allowed the feeling of “laziness” to consume me and this led to dry-spells which reflected in my writing. The pattern was clear. For one season my writing would be excellent, out of this world and for another season, I am thinking to myself, “did you really write this? Ugh Candace!” Inconsistency is a choke hole that no one should ever develop. Recently a very special friend of mine said to me, “When you start it, desire to finish it”. It’s better you take it, one thing at a time but desire to finish and “perfect” it.

I feel the very same way about my walk with God. Sometimes I’m up and then at the times I feel like giving up. Though this feeling is experienced by most Christians I know, I still don’t deem it as normal because I am sure they can all agree that most times, this feeling occurs when we lack or dropped in one area or areas which was formally frequently addressed. When you do one thing(one way) consistently after a while it becomes monotonous and the body will not receive much from it. It’s like exercising. A gym instructor will always ensure their clients switch up the routines because too much of the same thing will not be profitable to the muscle. Likewise if you are accustom to reading the bible once a day, there comes a time you will have to read two or three times a day to see growth and progress. If not, the act of repetition will bore you and draw you back from reading. Inconsistency will rare its head.

As I am analyzing my life, with the burning desire to rectify certain traits and patterns with the utmost help of God, I am encouraging you to live a life of consistency. Don’t look at others who might be handling more than one thing at a given time. If you can handle one, then let it be so. But when you start, do it to finish it. Let completion be your goal. A clock only stops ticking when its batteries die. So too should you stop ticking (accomplishing what you set out to do), only when you die. Until then, fulfill your purpose by being just like the clock, being consistent in your ticking.

I will  be twenty – six soon and for some they may consider that age too old to get some things started or some may get weary of continuing. I beg of you not to look at your age. My grandmother was seventy-five years of age, when she got her BA in Theology. Now that’s my kind of woman. A perfect example for me to never give up but keep on ticking. I will keep you all up to date with my progress as I am bent on living out the renewed project.

Submitted with Love – Candace Cudjoe

ARISE!

 

 

 

The Renewed Project – Submittal 4


Hi guys and girls. Sorry for the informality but I feel to be as free as possible today, which takes me to the essence of this piece. I am sure you all would have heard about conducting a SWOT analysis on yourselves, which highlights faults and strengths, that all aids in you becoming a better person. After conducting one myself, I would say that this approach can be very helpful because it allows you a chance to discover pieces of you. However, many people become frustrated after a while when things don’t seem to be falling into their respective places after conducting a SWOT analysis. Though this may seem as common sense, I felt the need to reiterate for some and introduce the ideas to others, that you have to tap into your resolutions. The SWOT analysis is only meant to give you an idea of things you need to work on but to deal with the real issue you have to literally tap into it.

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Let me make it a little clearer. By tapping in, I don’t mean applying the solution for a week and then stopping. I mean being consistent with it. There are days you will feel like giving up. It may seem as though things are stagnant. You may feel like your approach is not making any sense. That is not the time to give up. Maybe you would need to take an ice cream break or cake or whatever “tickles your fancy” (something good of course..lol) and relax. Free the brain a bit and go at it again. Giving up is NOT and should NEVER be an option.Why am I saying this? Simply because I found myself in that position. Things were beginning becoming a bit cumbersome and I started lashing out at everything and everyone, while a little prayer was brewing somewhere deep inside of me, saying “Oh Jesus help me, help me, help me”. Though I would wait for the calming factor that he (God) always applies, sometimes, the overwhelming feeling would not allow me to feel it but thank God, I decided giving up is not an option. So I paused for a cause, pulled myself away from everything and everyone and recalibrated. No! I am not hibernating. These things are sometimes necessary. The hassle of the world can twist your thinking processes at times and cause you to make rash and silly decisions. Some may beg to differ and that is fine because things vary for different people.

Today I actually felt the effects of my decision.I felt the freedom I have longed for. I had my time to think and I am ready to implement some new factors in my life, while strengthening those that are already there. I’m about to tap in. I also decided to have a little tick off list (sub swot) to keep track of my progress. My little heart is filled with so much excitement to take this next step, all for the renewal of my life. My goal is to be the authentic me and with God as my guide, that I intend to do. The road will be bumpy at times but I will still enjoy the ride. Will you join me by tapping into your hearts desire for your life? Maybe its health and fitness, building up of your confidence/ self-esteem, walking out of an abusive relationship, getting rid of some old bad habits and the list goes on. Think big. Think positive. Let’s tap into the next positive move in our lives together. Are you ready?

Share something you would like to change in your life and your vision of tapping in to get it done. You might just get company to do so.

The Renewed Project – Candace Cudjoe

ARISE!!

The Renewed Project – Submittal 3


As I am writing this piece, there is a smile on my face that has me in awe because some things in this journey of life are so mysterious, all you can do is smile, laugh or sometimes cry. So here I am reflecting on a few things, looking at my progress and simultaneously my failures. However, tonight, I have decided to do something different not because of me but because of something that is presently happening to which I still cannot understand.

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So today was not one of my best days, yet as I reflect, my heart was singing a worship song. Honestly, I am still in shock because the Candace I know, will be in tears and welling over this situation. Why is my heart singing a worship song? Am I mad and it’s flowing over in my heart? Oh but what a vital lesson I’ve learnt from this and that is, God looks beyond our faults and sees our needs. Now this is written in the word but as we know, application of the word is always more tedious than simply reading. So while the flesh would want to succumb to this minute issue, God is saying, here I am, hand it over to me and find rest for your soul. This leaves me to really wonder why God loves me so much. Have you ever stop to think about it? Why does he love us so much? It’s rather unfathomable. I guess that’s why he is called an awesome wonder.

I can’t find it in myself to sink myself into a dungeon. All I can do is sing this one through with a smile because I know God’s got it. Dear brother or sister, you are not perfect and no this is not an avenue to be used for reveling in wrong doing but it remains that you are not perfect and you will make mistakes along the way. The real issue will be how you deal with it. Will you allow it to overwhelm you and take your focus off of God or will you say, God here it is, take it, while I worship you and wait?’ I chose the latter. Which one will you chose? A wounded soldier is still a soldier and is trained to fight even when bruised. In our case we can stand still and know that God is God and the battle is not ours but it belongs to him. What we do is, NOT DOUBT the process but believe that even in turmoil, there can underlying beauty, waiting to be revealed. This gives me such a free feeling. I am excited for what God is doing in me. Are you excited for your journey? I hope you are because Romans 8:18 says  – I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

GLORY FOR THE GLORY LORD. I SAY GLORY FOR THE GLORY.

The renewed project – Candace Cudjoe

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The Renewed Project – Submittal 2


Hello fellow reader. As you know, I recently launched the “Renewed Project” for myself and for those who are interested in seeing things change in their lives. From my last submittal to now, there have been some good days and some bad to which I pushed through. However, I realize something tonight and would like to openly address the matter, since I believe this is something we all go through. While laying on my bed, I began to feel a bit discouraged and though I know deep within, I have important things to do, the feeling was somehow trying to get the best of me. This is one time I was ever so grateful for the Holy Spirit that is there to lead and direct. For those of you who are Christians, you would know that he tugs on our hearts and speaks to us in the calmest voice, instructing us in what to do. The  problem or answer lies in if we listen or not.

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What I was feeling tonight was not really depression or oppression, it was an acute effect of a relapse. No. I am not on drugs (lol) but as I’ve heard before misery likes company and I don’t take this literally only but also spiritually. Demons are all miserable beings looking for a host to live in or reside by. It is always easier to do wrong and to stay in a “depressed” state but as you begin to move up, the tug of getting back in the forlorn state gets more intense as you grow. If you do not have a source of strength like the Holy Spirit it’s very tough to continue growing. Possibility of finding yourself back in the position is great. When reality struck, I flew off my bed, threw on some music and began at it. Did that help? Not really. I still had to push myself to move but in doing so God added the necessary strength and now I am fully up and doing what I need to. My desire is to be the person God has created me to be and she is super royal. A royalty that I will have to learn to adapt to as I grow since it carries many stages. Each stage takes me into a deeper walk with him, a higher level of wisdom for life and all its mind-blowing events.

What am I really getting at? I am reminding you to remember your goal/s and NEVER EVER give up. Giving up is the foundation of failure and the last time I checked my God is a winner man,so that makes me a winner. There are days you don’t always feel to be your best and do your best but those days will build character and determination, if you PUSH. DO NOT GIVE UP. Fight it through. Push it through. YOU CAN DO THIS. Philippians 4:13  says, I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me. This morning a friend sent me a verse and a little exhortation that concluded, “Walk in the word”. YES! We are to walk in the word of God. I am empowered and ready to continue my journey. Are you?

The Renewed Project – Candace Cudjoe

ARISE!!