Reality Check

Circumstances often shows us the reality of our stance. Especially in the life of a Christian, the truth of what we believe, is made known to us through testing times. I remember a couple years ago, when I  began facing situations of a new dimension, a very soft voice spoke to me, posing a question that is still engraved in my mental membrane to this day. I was asked, “Will you be a good time Christian or an all time Christian“?

At the time, I vehemently responded without thinking about my answer “I will be an all time Christian”. The profoundness of the question did not yet fully penetrate my mental faculty and so it was easy to respond. After all, I was responding to God. The one man I will say or do anything to please. What I needed to be mindful of was, I was replying to a God who knows and sees all things. (TIP: Be careful how you answer God, your words might just squelch you).

As time went on and the waves of life began beating against my ship, slowly the infrastructure began to fall apart. The response I gave then became a question. Will I be an all time Christian? I was just about ready to give up. Many days I wallowed in sorrow and anguish. The truth about my foundation was coming to life. How solid was I in Christ? Were my circumstances going to determine the basis of my relationship with him?

There were days it almost did. I am not sure what kept me going. I will have to say, it was God himself in a very strange way because my mind said let go. My body said let go. I believe my heart said let go but yet I found myself holding on and moving on. I marvel at it to this day but in all this I was given a reality check. 

I was left with an evaluation sheet for my life, especially my faith and I must admit, I found myself wanting in some areas. Never did I thought, that I would be thankful for the grueling processing I went through and is still overcoming. Now I know what it means when the scripture says “In everything give thanks”. It may not make sense initially. What about pain makes sense? All we think about is getting it away. If there was a pill for emotional and societal pains, I am sure it would have peaked sales on the market because no one likes to feel the effects of circumstances. However, if there is no testing, there will be no reshaping. There were much improvement to be made in my life and I am thankful for failures and disappointements because they helped in bringing about the readjustment.

By much pruning and purging, it is safe to say, I conscientiously choose to be an all time Christian. God will not be served because he can serve me but simply because he is God and deserves to be revered. Don’t seek God for the things (blessings) but seek him to know his heart. We often don’t realize this is where we truly are until faced with many disappointments. When we find ourselves in a solidified disposition, we simultaneously find it difficult to be moved, even when faced with circumstances.

Have you had a reality check lately? What did you discover about your life (especially in Christ)?

– Candace Cudjoe


Know It Yourself

While reading one of the many books I am currently indulging in, something was highlighted to me by the Holy Spirit. The author was talking about her triumphing from a fiery situation and used a verse to reassure her readers that the same God who did it for her can do it for us. This gave me a sense of peace for but five seconds and then God stepped in. “Why do you need to read this to feel peace? Don’t you know me for yourself? Don’t you know that I can do it?”

Know God for Yourself

Though I was encouraged by the word I began to feel a bit sadden that it took this for me to feel better and rather than having some radical faith and sinking myself into the knowledge I have about God. The same God she is writing about is the same God I read about and pray to, if not everyday, it’s guaranteed, almost everyday. Yet, when in trouble it’s like all my knowledge was snuffed out of my being. I heard a song by Beautiful Eulogy that says, we are the kind to be captivated by symbols and signs (paraphrased). Not that he was knocking the work of God but he was stating what I just discovered. Had it not been for those things, won’t we still believe God? How sad can that be. God is all-powerful and can restrain his hands if he chooses to but that should NEVER phase our trust and hope in him.

This is not to be misconstrued. It is good for us to be encouraged and at times, God himself uses books and people to do so but it should never supersede the trust we should have in our God. It would be better if what we read becomes a booster or reminder for what we already know and not the introduction of a seed. Why do I say this? Because that was the persons experience and most likely what you read will  only keep you for so long. What if God decides to take months after the day you read to answer your prayer? Will you remember what you read and still hold unto it? Only if it’s the raw word of God and this would be in a place of you knowing it for yourself. I thank God for revealing this because though I read, sing, pray, write, etc, it was just indicated to me through the Holy Spirit that I need to know God more.

I encourage you, as I do myself to get to know God for yourself. Do not only take what the Pastors, Authors, YouTubers and the likes of those have to say. It will bear greater fruit and a deeper relationship when you know God for yourself. How do you begin? By simply reading the word because the word of God is God. It’s a guide to getting to know the intricacies and intimacy of him. Get to know him for yourself.