Reality Check

Circumstances often shows us the reality of our stance. Especially in the life of a Christian, the truth of what we believe, is made known to us through testing times. I remember a couple years ago, when I  began facing situations of a new dimension, a very soft voice spoke to me, posing a question that is still engraved in my mental membrane to this day. I was asked, “Will you be a good time Christian or an all time Christian“?

At the time, I vehemently responded without thinking about my answer “I will be an all time Christian”. The profoundness of the question did not yet fully penetrate my mental faculty and so it was easy to respond. After all, I was responding to God. The one man I will say or do anything to please. What I needed to be mindful of was, I was replying to a God who knows and sees all things. (TIP: Be careful how you answer God, your words might just squelch you).

As time went on and the waves of life began beating against my ship, slowly the infrastructure began to fall apart. The response I gave then became a question. Will I be an all time Christian? I was just about ready to give up. Many days I wallowed in sorrow and anguish. The truth about my foundation was coming to life. How solid was I in Christ? Were my circumstances going to determine the basis of my relationship with him?

There were days it almost did. I am not sure what kept me going. I will have to say, it was God himself in a very strange way because my mind said let go. My body said let go. I believe my heart said let go but yet I found myself holding on and moving on. I marvel at it to this day but in all this I was given a reality check. 

I was left with an evaluation sheet for my life, especially my faith and I must admit, I found myself wanting in some areas. Never did I thought, that I would be thankful for the grueling processing I went through and is still overcoming. Now I know what it means when the scripture says “In everything give thanks”. It may not make sense initially. What about pain makes sense? All we think about is getting it away. If there was a pill for emotional and societal pains, I am sure it would have peaked sales on the market because no one likes to feel the effects of circumstances. However, if there is no testing, there will be no reshaping. There were much improvement to be made in my life and I am thankful for failures and disappointements because they helped in bringing about the readjustment.

By much pruning and purging, it is safe to say, I conscientiously choose to be an all time Christian. God will not be served because he can serve me but simply because he is God and deserves to be revered. Don’t seek God for the things (blessings) but seek him to know his heart. We often don’t realize this is where we truly are until faced with many disappointments. When we find ourselves in a solidified disposition, we simultaneously find it difficult to be moved, even when faced with circumstances.

Have you had a reality check lately? What did you discover about your life (especially in Christ)?

– Candace Cudjoe


Pillow Talk: Reflection of 2013

The year is almost over. Have you sat and did an analysis of your past year? Did you accomplish what you wanted to? Did you even get it started? For some it’s yes and sadly for others it’s no. There are many reasons for the No’s, so we can’t pass judgement. What we can do is encourage each other.

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If you did not start or finish what you started, know that it’s not over until God says it’s over. With him, unless it’s a temporal or seasonal thing, it is not over, till death because he has an everlasting plan for the lives of his people. So what if you didn’t complete those GREAT goals? Don’t waste time beating up yourself for it. Pause for a cause, do a SWOT analysis of your life and get back on track. Off course, it is imperative that you acknowledge God for your every move.

Proverbs 3:5 – 7 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and depart from evil.

Speak greatness into the year 2014, denouncing all the previous mistakes. Pray for a Spirit like Daniel, an excellent Spirit. Concerning fear, that needs to be set aside. 2 Timothy 1:7 – For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. You have a great God and with him all things are possible. Let fear go. It isn’t as easy as saying it but with prayer it can be removed from disrupting your life.

2013 might have been better for some than others but December 31st will not mark the end of your life but just the end of a year. Your life is still before you and it is never too late. I always remind myself that the only good opportunities to be lost are those when I am dead. Be bold, allowing God to lead and make this declaration, “2014, here I come. I won’t hold back no more but will arise and walk  into my destiny in  Jesus name”.




Pillow Talk: The Name

I was on the verge of giving up on everything. Though I knew I am a work in progress, I was being very hard on myself and so if I slip up just once, I would down myself so much where depression is not an option but an action. I would think to myself, God is so disappointed in me and there is nothing I can ask for because I keep messing up. So even though I was praying, my prayer started to fade because I didn’t see it as “fit prayers” or rather I didn’t see myself fit to pray. What a lie from the pits of hell. That is only the devil himself trying to manipulate me into thinking God does not love that much, where he would look beyond my faults and my needs (that I need him). John 1:16 – And of his fullness have all we received, and grace for grace; allows me to know that I have grace.



Knowing that you have grace does not give you the right to abide in sin but know that when or if you do, it is there. Please understand that sin is anything that does not align itself with God’s word and not what society deem sin (wrongs) to be. Through out all my “little” mistakes, I’ve learned to call on the name JESUS and oh there is something about that name. Though I’m not worthy, I’m still allowed to call his name and enter in his presence, where he will fix me and make me whole. I love my daddy God. He is awesome and in him I have my being. Be encouraged even if you didn’t get it right this time, that you will. Don’t give up because God will NEVER give up on you. Just call his name. It’s the sweetest name to ever exist. He is more than able to do exceedingly abundantly above all we could ever think or ask of (Ephesians 3:20). He is able to complete the work in you (Philippians 1:6). So raise your head and just call that name. JESUS.